There are times I have no idea what I should do first. The stressors in life are overwhelming I must say. Every-time I think of it, why should I bother worrying too much? I should at least prioritize my feelings first. During those times I have to think of pulling myself up for the benefit of everybody, I feel like floating.
I don't know if it's right or wrong to pretend and disregard my feelings. Of course, I certainly know the answer to that, I just keep on hiding that inside me, knowing I have to be strong for the people around me and for those people who loves me.
I don't know what else should I do to make things a little lighter. My boypran would tell me I was just overthinking things. I should be enjoying simple pleasures in life, like eating ice-cream (i know I am cheating with my diet,sshh) but at least I'm celebrating my little joys and achievement like losing 2 lbs a week. ayt?
Anyway, lately I was like all talk and no trousers. I keep on saying things that I should do but I don't take actions on them. I don't know why I am delaying things now but I was just looking for a perfect timing. The pressure is on me but I don't want to think about it now. All I wish and hope is to see the daylight. I know, I wanted to say that to keep myself motivated and think clearly. I should not wait and make things happen. wew.. I can do this. Someone push me now please.