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I am full of emotions right now. I can't explain, I can't describe but all I know is that I feel the PAIN. The pain in my stomach, the pain in my throat and the pain in my eyes. I feel bad, I know I'm not the only one who feels this way and I can't help it. This is just me, I am just with MYSELF today. The feelings I've had before now came back. I thought I finally blocked it on my system, I tried to ignore it these years however anxiety attacks me again. I am so emotional, I was crying a lot, especially this week. I can't help myself to be like this. I'm just a cry baby.  source There are a lot of things that had happened to me this month. I can't say it all. I can't find the words to say it all. I am just thankful that I've found this person who is willing to listen to all my troubles. I can share to him all my worries and sentiments. However, I'm not the person I used to be back then. I've changed a lot and I don't like ...

source Finally, I watched the movie The Bourne Legacy yesterday. I had fun watching the Manila scene. The motorcycle chasing scene was awesome.astig!! IMBA talaga. hehe. Anyway, I don't like the ending though, nabitin ako kasi eh. I wasn't expecting anything from the movie and it wasn't a prequel of the Bourne series movie. It was the other side of the story about the organization. If you didn't know the story of the Bourne Series, the Jason Bourne one then you can't understand this one. I would suggest you watch the Jason Bourne series first. Both characters portrayed well in the movie and I love Rachel's character in the movie. She was just an ordinary doctor and she doesn't know everything except that she was there to work for the Science. Then all of the sudden someone was trying to kill her, that's a shock, right? Hindi pa ata sya naka recover when one of her co-worker killed all the doctors except her then here comes the pretending ...

"A GIFT OF BLOOD IS A GIFT OF LIFE" I just had a first time moment today. Yes, I donated blood! My first time to donate. Papa told us to donate blood. He told us that he bought blood for my grand-father at Red Cross when he got sick so we have to replace the blood with ours. I don't think there's nothing wrong with that since they say donating blood is good for the health. I thought I would faint when I saw the needle during the blood letting process. I can't imagine I have a strong heart haha! Blood donation is really not for fainted heart, so assess yourself first. Anyway, it does not hurt that much. During the hemoglobin process the needle caught me off guard, it hurts for a short period. source Here are the reasons why donating blood is good for you. Blood donation is an excellent way to reduce the amount of iron accumulated in our body. While iron is, without doubt, a necessary mineral, excess iron can stimulate the formation of free radicals...

source Learning the art of letting go is pretty hard. It’s hard to let go of people, to let go of the feelings and memories. Lately, I realized I care too much. I care too much for people who don’t even care about me. Sometimes, how I wish I wasn’t that nice and not to care even once. I know this is cliché but life is so short, too short to waste a single minute with anyone who doesn’t appreciate or value you.   Maybe that’s why it’s hard for me to let go of people that come and go my way. source I find it hard to let go especially when you got attached to it. I think it’s time I have to learn the art of letting go in order for me to move on and look forward to the best days ahead of me. Everyone that joins in my journey is meant to be in my journey however they are not meant to stay there forever.   I was just over-thinking things and sometimes over-thinking can ruin your feelings and situation or worse than you can actually imagine. It happens a l...

There are times I have no idea what I should do first. The stressors in life are overwhelming I must say. Every-time I think of it, why should I bother worrying too much? I should at least prioritize my feelings first. During those times I have to think of pulling myself up for the benefit of everybody, I feel like floating.  I don't know if it's right or wrong to pretend and disregard my feelings. Of course, I certainly know the answer to that, I just keep on hiding that inside me, knowing I have to be strong for the people around me and for those people who loves me.  img source

It's my birthday! This post is a bit late. I've been kind of busy yesterday so I forgot. hehe. My tummy is unwell yesterday so I didn't eat that much. Happy to know that my one and only is there for me. I fell asleep while we're talking hihi.  I am forever grateful to Father God for all the blessings. I just want to thank you just for loving me so much. Happy Birthday to me! :)  source

I love how patient you are with me especially when I'm not in the mood. I love how you never cease  to make me laugh and make me smile.  I love it when you remember the things I have told you even though I can't remember most of them.  I love it every-time we look at each other so tenderly.  I love it when you hug me so tight and I hug you back super tight. I love it how you say my name. I love it when we kiss and hug each other after a small fight/misunderstanding.  I love how you touch my hair when we kiss and told me how much you love me. I love how comfortable we are around each other.  I so love how we can tease and make fun of each other, like we're best of friends.  I love your sweet text messages, the thoughts and words are kilig to the ribs.  I love the efforts you are making just to make sure I'm fine when I'm in an awkward moment.  I love the feeling of loving you. I want you to know that I love you this...